Poetry

MOLLY

i miss you.
someone i never knew.
someone i never met & never will.
to love someone so small & so fragile is both a gift & a curse.

so delicate.
so soft.
so small.

it feels like millions of years have passed since your arrival.
if feels like it was just yesterday you arrived.

so fragile.
so soft.
so delicate.

its been ages.
its been seconds.
its been 29 years.

someone i never met & never will.
someone i never knew.
i miss you.

HOME

Grassy Illinois plains and fields of wildflowers call to me.

I miss the jagged rows of corn and the sweet lullaby the combines sing in the summertime.

The whistle of the wind through the trees and land for miles and miles does something for my soul.

Deer frolicking through the timber put a smile on my face like no other.

Beanstalks in the fields and cattails in the ditches with the toads lurking and croaking make me miss home.

The hot summer sun shining down on the gravel roads and glinting off the grass makes me miss who I used to be.


ICARUS


There are soft clucks from the hens,

Occasional murmurs from the goats,

Even faint hymns hummed by the harvester.


Peering over the unending clouds,

The lap of the waves on the shore soothe those near,

Even the breeze coming off the humble sea seems serene.


The smell of a freshly cut pasture,

Guided by the salty sea air, could relax

Even the livestock milling about.


BARETTES & SCRAPED KNEES


The young toddler used to see bright yellow plastic

Covered in deep dark dents

Made by countless trips

Down the colossal neon spiral

By countless other toddlers.


The young toddler used to see glossy blue plastic

Covered in small, secret scratches

Made by numerous play dates

With the big man she called Grandpa – 

His Golden hair just long enough for the colorful clasps.


The young toddler used to see small scrapes,

Streaming red with

Gritty grains of sand,

Mixing with the salt of her tears,

Filling the stinging red cuts on her knees.


The young toddler used to see strong calloused hands lifting her up

And bandaging her,

The man with the Golden locks would always say,

“No more slides today, just barrettes.

Grandpa’s gotcha now.”


NICHOLAS, A SAINT


This is who you were.

You had crazy, unruly red hair,

An uncontrollable and contagious laugh,

And the brightest blue eyes.


Your crazy red hair

Always coated with the dingy smell of stale cigarette smoke,

Your bright blue eyes filled with joy.

The too-big camouflage t-shirts you wore


Had the dingy smell of stale cigarette smoke,

But you constantly had goofy grin,

Even though I hated your too-big camouflage t-shirts.

You were invariably optimistic,


With your goofy grin and

An uncontrollable, contagious laugh.

Invariably optimistic,

This is who you were.


FOOD FOR THOUGHT


The orange hound barks as His human walks through the door, Circling back and forth, Twitching his tail eagerly, In hopes of his human finally staying home. The plump pooch sniffs at his human While she grips a round white object. Hoping the bowl is filled with something for him for once, She holds it up away from him. Realizing it is not for him, The pup sinks to the floor like a puddle of neglected fur. The human, at last, reaches down to stroke the dog with one hand, The other occupied with a bulky rectangular object. Just as the big dog began to howl and wiggle with anticipation, His human, once again, got up, leaving him hungry and heartbroken. It was then that he realized the truth – He and his human were opposites; There was more to his human’s life than just him.


PRICKLY PROMISES

Prickly Pear,
Peyote,
Parodia. 

Harsh pricks from plants that should promise her protection, but instead.
Just like the succulents, she has to bare such a strong spine.
Significantly small and simultaneously severe, she still stifles her cries.

Like the water filling an old cactus,
She’s brimming with the floods of broken promises,
Always used for what’s on the inside
By the ceaseless nomads that steadily come and go, but never stay.

Parodia,
Peyote,
Prickly Pear.

SNOW

Snow leaves the clouded blue sky. Once mountain rain, Now obtuse puddles amidst the gravel. Water so dark, Once mountain rain. It could be mistaken for Water. So dark; Some kind of ink. It could be mistaken for Something once sinister. Some kind of ink, Vibrant like the sun. Something once sinister, Now obtuse puddles amidst the gravel. Vibrant like the sun, Snow leaves the clouded blue sky.


BLACK AND WHITE GODDESS

I hear a sharp breath as he begins.
With the first ring of the keys,
Beautiful noise comes from his black and white goddess.
The keys hum softly as his fingers glide across them.

With the first ring of the keys,
He takes me deeper into his music.
The keys hum softly as his fingers glide across them,
Each note better than the last.

He takes me deeper into his music.
Sounds of the keys fill my head.
Each note better than the last,
Only his music is soothing my soul.

Sounds of the keys fill my head.
Beautiful noise comes from his black and white goddess.
Only his music is soothing my soul.
I hear a sharp breath as he begins.


ASTROLOGY

You were born this way.
But none of this sounds like me.
The stars named you before you had a chance.
You must have always been this beautifully cruel.

But none of this sounds like me.
It is time for you to die now, Lion.
You must have always been this beautifully cruel.
Your grave will be as delicate as you are supposed to be.

It is time for you to die now, Lion.
I see my demise as a new beginning for myself.
Your grave will be as delicate as you are supposed to be.
The stars should have named me a lion. You’re not a lion.

I see my demise as a new beginning.
The stars named you before you had a chance.
The stars should have named me a lion. You’re not a lion.
You were born this way. 


BROKE

Everyone else gets quarters or dollar bills.

Not me; I got a penny.

Without waking me, a shimmering penny was slipped under my pillow.


I awoke so full of merriment.

Excited, I rushed to show them.

They had painted looks of astonishment on their faces already.

She kissed my forehead, 

Lipstick lingering,

And told me to show my friends.


I did, I showed my friends.

They laughed and said I was weird.

Just because we weren’t as well-off.

It hurt when they made fun of me.

They said we weren’t normal,

All because of a penny.


But, I didn’t think so.

I loved it.

Being different from the rest?

I was thankful.


But I still wonder how they did it,

Slipped that penny under my pillow and made those perfect footprints.


RECIPE FOR BEING A GOOD PET

Being a pet is pretty challenging.

Take it from me, the family goldfish.

Cats purr, dogs bark, and birds chirp.

But, what the hell do I do?

Swim around in a tiny-ass glass bowl 24/7.

In order to be considered a good pet, as well as survive, you must be able to get your human’s attention.

Goldfish. Can’t. Do. That.

To be a good pet, you must also be able to spend some good ‘ol quality time with your human.

Go on walks, snuggle, play fetch.

Goldfish can’t do that either.

Good pets are typically well mannered.

Sweet, cuddly, and warm.

Goldfish have none of those characteristics.

A good pet will stay at your side when you fall suddenly ill; take care of you in a way.

Goldfish are stuck in bowls and can never escape.

But, a truly good bet will never leave your side.

Goldfish die.

A lot.

All in all, being a goldfish, we’re pretty shitty pets.


NOVEMBER 13, 2013

A funnel cloud, bewitching yet foreboding,

Took its form in the center of a faultless town,

Almost as if it were waiting to show the townspeople its true force.


Every line is down; the power is out.

Childhood memories of adolescent slumber parties, sweet sixteen’s and first cars, clumsy kisses,

All destroyed.

A small girl treks through the streets of rubble, aimlessly searching for what she’s lost

Due to the detrimental cyclone that lasted a mere 14 minutes.


We lost everything – superfluous objects.

We gained everything – fellowship.




PHOTOGRAPH

You stood, arms crossed and back to the maple tree in the front yard.

You look the same now as you did in black and white;

Strong, handsome, and young.


You’ve changed since then. 

Even though you may not be so young, you’re still strong.

But you’ll always be strong – you’re the strongest man I’ve ever known.

And you’re just as handsome now as you were in black and white.


I suppose you’re not so different after all.

In the black and white your mouth forms a crooked grin, 

And your head is tilted slightly as you suppress a chuckle.

You were remarkably cheerful and so full of life.


You seem blissful there.

If I could go back to the black and white, I’d ask you

What it was that made you smile that way.

I’d warn you to never let it escape your grasp, to hold it close forever.


UNTITLED

To drink

Said the young woman

Is drowning my sorrows and fear

With liquor and hope

It mixes will with my previously ingested sins


To drink

Said the vibrant corn

Is to startle my insides and stretch upwards

Still hoping to shrink deeper into the soil

Away from the ample green and yellow spears


To drink

Said the dingy coal

Is to transform myself

To create something powerful

To form a necessity


To promise is to anticipate

Said the youthful woman

It is to be dreadful of forgetfulness

Not of oneself but of others


To promise is to say farewell

Said the melancholy corn

It is to be accepting of the future

Not to be disheartened when the time comes


To promise is to affirm

Said the affable coal

It is to be relied on

Not to harm but to help



Songs are ominous

Said the pained young woman

They come from a place of torment

They lyrics can cause pain

But the music can inflict severe harm


Songs are prejudice

Said the vexed corn

They are written for love or heartbreak

The lyrics do not reflect reality

But the music soothes


Songs are for those who yearn for more

Said the arrogant coal

They are for those who desire scrutiny

The concepts in no way emulate their true identity

But only how they are seen through the world’s eye


THE AFTERMATH


bright lights, strobes, bass banging through the floorboards and into your bones

hands in the air, smoke clinging to everyone and everything


throats red and raw from screaming all the words in unison


hips thrusting, legs shaking until – 


fists flying, bodies pushing and shoving


blood everywhere


then back to – 


heads banging, bass throbbing


screaming together, vibing together


band’s jumping


all of a sudden – 


circles forming, yelling escalating, elbows in chests


shoulders


faces


legs


then back to – 


rocking, swaying, dancing, screaming


it isn’t until the next day that the aftermath hits


hard


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